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Sunday, February 14

Said something dumb during dinner with my mom and sister, or not dumb, but I wasn't really able to express myself very well, and they both gave each other the weirdest looks. As if I'd just jumped on the table and farted in their drinks or something. I don't know.
I remember that I SPECIFICALLY wanted to write about something that happened today, but I can't even remember now.
I feel like I need a better outlet than this stupid blog. Sometimes I just have all this pent up something that needs to get out, I can't really describe it. I feel like I want to scream out at the top of my lungs, but I already know that that still wouldn't be enough. I don't know where this comes from.
This morning in the shower I wondered what it would be like if I just got sucked down the drain. Swloop would be the sound I would make, or at least I think so. The thought of being sucked down the shower drain like that was somehow kind of exciting, I think I'm mad.
I think I tend to think that I'm a lot more withdrawn from people than I think I am, but then comes the problem of trying to figure out why I think that? Attention whore? Idiot?

This blog is just a cesspool for negative energy and thoughts, enjoy it!

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